|Me, last summer, pregnant w/#5|
Last year, my wonderful husband, along with my sister and my friend, threw me a fun birthday party to mark my passage into the thirties. I was so blessed to see so many of my family and friends, and I missed those who could not make it. But I felt no different than 29.
Today I do not feel different than 30.
At times, I have felt 58, or even 100, since I started having babies. So nothing new there either.
This time last year I was pregnant with #5 and now he is 6 months old. That's different.
This time last year I was full of anticipation for our future, anxious and overwhelmed with what I hoped would come soon. That's different, also. Because this year I'm a little more calm and peaceful over our future, though I do have my days, and getting here to this place of rest took a long, long journey.
|Me at 1 or so|
I can also thank God for what He has done for me in my life. What He's doing for my husband and our children. For all the memories I've been able to create; for all the blessings and challenges of old, and the ones the future will bring.
I look back on different moments in my life, in awe of the divine plan that surrounded me and how unaware of it I was. I am in awe of the guidance I've had, though I have strayed from it at times. I look at pictures of me as a little girl and I wish so many things for her; things I wish I could tell her to help her through the next few decades. But I have a feeling she wouldn't listen to me anyway.
Today I celebrate my mother's birthing day. I celebrate all the people in my life, especially those who have challenged me. I celebrate my husband, for loving me and our children, for making the last 9 + years of my life what it has been to me: a gift, a learning experience,
a dance in the rain despite the storms,
the magic of travels through a waterfall of hope.
Today I celebrate not just my birthday, but Life.
The moments behind me, and the ones yet to live.
|Me and my big sister, Kate|
|First or Second Grade at St. Johns!|
|This funny picture is from when I was about 11|