It appears that it's just about that time again! Yes, yes, that means I'm about to have another baby! This will be baby #8 for us, folks, with 2 of them being in heaven- little saints watching over us, and hopefully praying for me. I want so badly to meet them. I hope I get there.
I'm actually about 6 1/2 months along. The news of us expecting again was kept a secret for quite some time. I myself have had such a difficult time, and just didn't feel like sharing. I'm still recovering from the mental dive I took after dealing with a horrendous relationship with a narcissist which stole much of my time, energy, and trust. I've been spending the last year +, building myself back up from that, so finding out I was pregnant, which would ultimately detour my recovery a little bit, was kind of a shock.
But as I frequently say, new life is ALWAYS a blessing and as I face all of the difficulties I've had with this pregnancy (which, by the way are actually not that big of a deal compared to others), I'm striving really hard to view another baby as the blessing it truly is.
If you know me, you know that a big family wasn't really on my radar. I come from a big one, yes, but I never thought I'd have one of my own. The few times we've taken matters into our own hands and planned to not have another one (at least for a little while), the Lord worked in our hearts and convicted us otherwise. One of the babies I lost. Another one I had about 20 months ago, and then there is this one, little baby G whom God must have really felt was to be a very important aspect of our life. So, this is just one of those instances where you plan, God laughs, and then He shows you HIS plan. It might be scary. It might be difficult. But when your heart thirsts for the Lord, and you want SO badly to please Him and follow His will for your life, what else is there to do but say YES? I can't wait to meet this next YES!
Please pray for me, my friends. I always, always need it so desperately!!